Divided mind, undivided heart

31 October 2006
Sounds like a cool title, doesn’t it?
I am always confused by something. Being very analytical is truly a nightmare. I am mostly confused about what I want to do for the rest of my life. I want to be a professor someday and I want to have my PhD. But I still don’t know where I want to teach. I also want to work for UNESCO someday. Of course, all of these options have their own negative and positive sides. The problem is that I am aware of all of these at the same time. Some people I think are blessed since they do not have the capability of thinking about such problems. They just continue their lives as they are. They do not think. But not me. I always think.
So this is my prayer:
Lord, I may have divided mind. I still haven’t made up my mind about what I want to do in the future. But Lord, give me this. Give me an undivided heart to follow you more nearly, to see you more clearly, and to love you more dearly day by day. Some day things are going to be clearer, and all I need is an undivided heart for You.
Amen