After being absent for half a year

I haven't written anything on my blog for more than half a year. The last entry seems so sad and blue. Well, now I'm not so desperate and lost, but still lost and desperate.
Life has gone to a different direction since January. Now, having been at UNESCO for nearly four months, I have decided not to pursue further career in these international organizations. After having a stint of struggle on the pastoral calling, I have also decided not to be a full-time minister. Looking back at my entries since 2006, I cannot keep myself away from a sense of wonder at how things have changed since then and how things remain the same up to now.
I notice even more at how I have aged and grown in maturity in looking at the same matters with different perspectives.
I still enjoy my seminary and I am grateful for the opportunity to study there and I am still very keen on pursuing my PhD. But if the good Lord opens a different gate, I want to go there as well.